The Thought Bomb

What started as a good day, turned out to be real sad. That sums up my day, today. I went out on a date with that girl I mentioned earlier. But, it wasn’t good. She wasn’t my type. I don’t know why, but she’s not my type. Actually, I find her a bit fake. I don’t know whether that’s true or not, but I didn’t like her. Well, that was just the beginning.

Then, I went to see HER. I just felt so good seeeing her. I felt like hugging her and telling her how much I love her. But, I couldn’t do that. I felt like so close to her, yet so far. I want to ask her many things. But, that doesn’t happen. I felt so helpless. I wanted to tell her so many things but the words just stop. When she believes in me so much, when she trust me above all, then why can’t she love me. She surely loves me as a friend. But, I want more. I want her to love me as I do. Even half of it would do.

I can’t really think of any girl except her. I tried so many times but I just can’t. I guess that’s my destiny to only love and not being loved. It’s sad, though!

~ by dtoxikated on July 3, 2008.