Disturbed Identity

I don’t know where I am leading to. I mean it’s like I am not having control over my emotions. I am a sensitive guy, I know. But, there has been quite a fuss about myself. I can’t hold myself back now. I just can’t help it. I know she doesn’t love or will never love me, but I am still stuck on her. I can’t move forward.

I really don’t know what’s in store for me. I mean should I go all the way to ask her why she doesn’t love me. Why feelings for me doesn’t come naturally to her? These are the questions I wanna ask her for a long time, but I don’t want to hurt her. Now, it’s hurting me more, I really don’t know what to do. Do I have a choice? I guess no. I am just so addicted to her that I can’t loose her. But, the thing that bothers me is that this addiction doesn’t change into something called possession. Also, I don’t know whether this love will change into hatred. I just hope not!

~ by dtoxikated on July 6, 2008.